In a rut

Alright, so I went to my gyno last week to get a pap smear, right? right! So on Tuesday, the office called me back, and told me I had abnormal cells on my cervix. I'm not too nervous on that, cuz abnormal cells are abnormal cells, and it could come back as nothing. But what I did find out yesterday.. I'm pregnant. This will be my 2nd pregnancy. Jeremy and I have talked about it, and he's mor leaning towards terminatination, but I just don't think I can go through with that... I mean not after my 1st baby. I think god gave me way too many chances to grow up and prepare for something like this to happen again, that it is finally time for my to move forward. Whether Jeremy accepts it or not, he's gunna have some growing up to do also. I think eventually, he'll come to terms with it. No one ever said it's going to be easy, but it's something we are going to have to get through together. I still have more talking to do with him. When my decision is final... I will let you know.